"My Ex Husband Was My First Love. So Can You Imagine The Koyak Rabak..." - Farah Lee

Personaliti media sosial, Farah Lee akui ramai yang bertanyakan bagaimana dia yakin untuk mencari pengganti selepas bercerai dengan personaliti TV, Ally Iskandar.

Farah menegaskan dia masih dalam keadaan trauma serta tidak merasakan tindakan mencari pengganti mampu untuk menyembuhkan luka di hatinya.

"So I sometimes being asked how can I be so confident in finding new love.?

"Hell no. Trauma. Still lingers around. Kalau tak, awal-awal dah kahwin baru dah, bukan takde orang nak khenn haha.

"But I just don't think finding new love works to heal my wound. It works for some others, but not for me.

"I believe that, the best healing comes from within by me, not others.

"There it goes, joking and teasing around is one of the ways for me overcome my trauma which some of you call it, desperate. Desperate it is.

"My life is tough, not like you lucky ones. Battling with my own nightmares, keep hating myself for refusing to give a father figure to my child in her daily life - because of the trauma.

"I always have trust issue. Divorce even make it worse now. I was (and still.! Haha) a very loyal type, and I don't simply love.

"My ex husband was my first love. So can you imagine the koyak rabak trust I went through.?

"And the struggle I'm going through right now to cantumkan balik koyak rabak tersebut.? Loads of work man. Fuh.

"Trauma, is no joke. So yea. Everytime a guy trying to masuk line, I said to myself "what if bla3, what if bla3" then I stepped back, then I got mad at myself, why is it so hard to open up again.?

"Yet the circle keeps repeating.! Heh. But I do hope it ends one day," tulisnya.

Selain itu, Farah turut berpesan kepada semua pihak supaya menyayangi diri sendiri dan lebih menghargai dengan orang yang berada di sekeliling kita.

"So for you, it's fine if you're not yet ready for new love, just love yourself and appreciate the people around. It's ready when it's ready I guess.

"Don't push yourself too much. But make effort in the meantime. Doa, solat, tahajjud.

"They heals. And joking around heals too - you just need to bear makcik bawang yang suka judge and too serious with life jela - which sometimes lagi haru nak melayan.

"Oh and if you're segan with your janda status and the stigma all that, please remember Khadijah RA was once a janda, but she's the best among the best.

"So be proud of it and be one of the best too. Just please, jangan mencari bahagia atas tangisan orang lain.

"We went through that, we should not let other woman suffer the same.

"Dengan kata lain, nak bahagia boleh, just jangan caras laki orang you. Hmmmph. Kbai. #ommabebel #FLwrites," tulisnya lagi.

Rata-rata pengikutnya gembira dengan perkongsian tersebut dan mendoakan semoga suatu hari nanti Farah akan berjumpa dengan kebahagiaannya.

Ally dan Farah bernikah pada 20 Januari 2012 namun berpisah pada 17 Ogos 2016.

Pasangan itu dikurniakan seorang cahaya mata Maream Esabel yang berusia lima tahun.

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. So I sometimes being asked how can I be so confident in finding new love.? . Hell no. Trauma. Still lingers around. Kalau tak, awal2 dah kahwin baru dah, bukan takde orang nak khennn ??‍♀️ Haha.. But I just don't think finding new love works to heal my wound. It works for some others, but not for me. I believe that, the best healing comes from within -- by me, not others. . There it goes, joking and teasing around is one of the ways for me overcome my trauma -- which some of you call it, desperate. Desperate it is. My life is tough, not like you lucky ones. Battling with my own nightmares, keep hating myself for refusing to give a father figure to my child in her daily life - because of the trauma. . I always have trust issue. Divorce even make it worse now. I was (and still.! Haha) a very loyal type, and I don't simply love. My ex husband was my first love. So can you imagine the koyak rabak trust I went through.? And the struggle I'm going through right now to cantumkan balik koyak rabak tersebut.? Loads of work man. Fuh. . Trauma, is no joke. So yea. Everytime a guy trying to masuk line, I said to myself "what if bla3, what if bla3" then I stepped back, then I got mad at myself, why is it so hard to open up again.? Yet the circle keeps repeating.! Heh. But I do hope it ends one day ?? . So for you, it's fine if you're not yet ready for new love, just love yourself and appreciate the people around. It's ready when it's ready I guess. Don't push yourself too much. But make effort in the meantime. Doa, solat, tahajjud. They heals. And joking around heals too - you just need to bear makcik bawang yang suka judge and too serious with life jela - which sometimes lagi haru nak melayan ? . Oh and if you're segan with your janda status and the stigma all that, please remember Khadijah RA was once a janda, but she's the best among the best. So be proud of it and be one of the best too. Just please, jangan mencari bahagia atas tangisan orang lain. We went through that, we should not let other woman suffer the same. Dengan kata lain, nak bahagia boleh, just jangan caras laki orang. U. Hmmmph. Kbai. #ommabebel #FLwrites
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