Kehilangan abang sulung kurang lima bulan sebelum menyertai pertandingan Asia's Next Top Model (AsNTM6) benar-benar merenggut jiwa Rubini Sambanthan, 27.

Masih berkabung, pemergian abang tercintanya, Devaganeh disifatkan Rubini seolah-olah luka yang takkan pernah sembuh.

"Memasuki AsNTM6 adalah keputusan paling susah dalam hidup saya! Saya mengambil masa yang lama untuk berkata 'ya'.

"Luka kehilangan abang kandung saya masih berdarah.

"Bayangkan ketika itu ibu saya baru kehilangan anak lelakinya dan saya giliran saya pula seterusnya! Sebulan tanpa berhubung sangat membimbangkan saya.

"Saya rasa bersalah, kenapa sampai sanggup tinggalkan emak saya demi pertandingan ini? Tetapi, inilah penerokaan baharu saya.

"Daripada asyik menangis, meratap orang yang telah pergi, AsNTM membuka lembaran baharu buat saya," katanya kepada Gempak.

Kata Rubini, abangnya sentiasa mengusik, mahu melihat satu-satunya adik perempuan dalam keluarga kecil itu muncul di kaca televisyen.

"Dialah yang selalu inginkan saya masuk pertandingan, apabila saya terpaksa menolak tawaran untuk AsNTM3, dia kecewa.

"Bukan senanglah nak masuk, itu jawapan saya kepadanya.

"Tetapi sekarang... Apabila saya menyertai AsNTM6 dia pula yang tak ada untuk tengok. It's hurts me a lot...

"Gembiranya saya tiada erti, sukar untuk gambarkan dengan kata-kata. It's too soon," getus Rubini sambil menyeka air mata.

Saudara kandung Rubini meninggal dunia pada hujung tahun lalu akibat masalah depresi serius.

Sementara itu, AsNTM6 menyaksikan penyertaan tunggal wakil Malaysia selepas Tuti (AsNTM4).

AsNTM6 bersiaran di saluran Astro 711 dan 722 (Fox Life dan Fox Life HD) serta saluran unifi TV 455 setiap Rabu pukul 9 malam.

GET TO KNOW A LIL MORE ABOUT ME MALAYSIA ?? Her hips don't lie! In this industry confidence is key. Malaysia's Rubini Sambanthan says her struggles are her strengths. Do you agree? #AsNTM6 #BeyondLimits teammalaysia #teamrubi #Rubiontop #beyondlimits

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Yo found my doppelgänger! Lol kidding. This opportunity return to me after three cycle and honestly when I was scouted by the team I was probably at my darkest phase of my life. Probably the hardest decision I made at that period. But I’m glad they found me and here I am in ASNTM6 Representing MALAYSIA ?? Stay Tuned and lock down 22 August 2018 it’s the premiere. #AsNTM #AsNTM6 #teammalaysia #teamrubi #Rubiontop #beyondlimits

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Episode 1: Thank you Judges for the feedbacks and I appreciate your words of encouragement And Thank you guest Judge Celine for giving me 10/10. Terima Kasih. My parents reaction was the best, my father taught I might have walked away from the shoot and my mom was like no you did not!! My fear of snakes are real and no joke this was the most intense shoot I have ever-ever done and I say NO MORE TO SNAKES, i have tried and faced my biggest fear of my life and letting it be all over my skin is just too much. This shoot is definitely very intense and I am really proud of my self for not breaking down and glad that I stayed professional through out the entire shoot. This yellow fella is 15kg and I still don’t like Any sort of snakes! and cockroaches too. #AsNTM #AsNTM6 #teammalaysia #teamrubi #Rubiontop #beyondlimits

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